Hello AF....where are you

Its been a little while since I have updated.. lots of stuff happening over here...

I am waiting for AF to show her face.. she is late and working on her own time here.. Having PCOS it is not all that often she will come without intervention  *meaning prometrium* So tonight i start that and back on Metformin. I have enjoyed a month of no medications that is for sure.

We are 2 weeks into 4 of our foster care classes.. and have our final home safety check this thursday.. things are moving along and we could have a foster kid in less than a month ... eeek!

Friends of ours have 4 vials of sperm left over ( their friend was their donor) and they are preg with their 2nd and last baby and asked if we might want the samples... if  their donor said it was ok... I said yes ... that 2000.00 saved! It would also be awesome to know our childs half siblings.... Hopefully he says yes :)

 

night

the story of us!

I belong to a queer online forum of others riding this TTC rollercoaster and someone posted a Question of the day.. It was a good one so I think I will also answer it here..

The ? was How did you and your DP meet...

K and I met online.. I had been enjoying my single life and had been broken up with my ex partner for almost a year and a half when I got the first email from K.
When I got the email I was confused, as I had forgotten I had signed up for Compatible Partners site because it  was a free thing for a yr or something..
Anyways K emailed me and I was intrigued.. I thought why not.. she lives 3 hrs away and its not like we can do the whole Uhaul thing.. right?
We started emailing.. and we emailed long long letters, wanting to know everything about each other.. ( i saved most all of them) We started talking on the phone about a month into emailing.. and the phone calls were sometimes until 5 am.
Our first date was the middle of nowhere ( halfway for both of us) and we sat at this little diner .. I was very nervous.. I knew the moment I met her.. we were going to be together.  It was about 3 weeks later ( Halloween weekend) when we had our 2nd date.. that was when it became official... we were a couple from then on. She was still living in Fresno.. and had gotten notice that her job was ending.. so she started looking there and here in Oakland for jobs and was going to take whatever the best job was.. She ended up taking a live in nanny job 1 mile from me .. finding out two of our nanny kids were at same pre school!  She did have a little 1 bed cottage .. I think we slept there maybe 5 times..
And here were are .. we have ups and downs like any couple.. TTC has been a real treasure on our relationship for sure.. but we have stayed strong through it all.

far from normal

Well mom went back to Az last night .. She was here for 10 days and it went better than it ever has before. We have not spent that much time together in .. oh I can not even tell you when. She came to work with me, got to meet all the kids. I think this trip was good for her soul, ever since the idiot ( my so called brother i no longer speak to ) moved away and took the grand kids to Kansas she has been really down. So getting to cuddle up the kids was great.
We came back from the airport and there was a card for us and in the card was the nicest thing my mom has ever said. She thanked us for a great visit and then wished us well on our foster to adopt path and said any kid would be lucky to have us as moms. That meant alot.. knowing she will be accepting of our future ! She does not know we are TTC.. I dont think I want to share all the ups and downs of this coaster!

I am waiting for AF to show up so we can get this next cycle going...

Night ~

Mom visits

Its been a week or so since I added anything... It has been really busy around here. My mom flew in from AZ for 10 days.. we are on day 5 and so far it has been pleasant , and has not been any arguing.. this might be a record for us. We have been having a nice time. I have taken her to Farmers markets, a street fair, lunches, pedicures, movies and the big one was meeting Kassandra's mom and brother. They joined us for Mothers day. It was the first chance they have had to meet being my mom is in Arizona and K mom is here in CA.
I am confident they got along well and had some good conversations. This is a big deal to K as she wants our future kids to be close to both grandparents. I was much less concerned with it ...

Dr Hirata confirmed my HSG was normal and tubes were indeed open and clear.

Nothing else to report on the TTC front. Waiting for AF again so that I can start another round of clomid and injectables. It is nice not having to go in for so many appointments this month. It was good timing with my moms visit.. I did not want to have to explain why I am at the doctor so much.

Off to watch Private Practice

HSG

Today I had a procedure done called an HSG,, now let me tell you that was not my idea of a fun time! It was very uncomfortable ,,Luckily I had taken a dose of valium so I was pretty relaxed.
The good news.. No blockage , and the dye ran through very quick and easy! So the little pain was worth knowing these little eggs can  and WILL travel nicely
Now to enjoy the rest of this month with no dr appts and no injections!

We did our fingerprints for the foster care and then decided to do the 2nd set that goes over to the adoption side.. Its starting to feel closer and closer.

Oh aunt flow how i love you

No not really.. but I am happy she came on her own with out more drugs or accupunture or frustrations.. she is here with a vengance....
I am having a HSG done next wendesday.. I am a bit nervous. It is a procedure where they put this dye through your fallopian tubes to be sure they are open and clear. The plus is they say after this you are more fertile for 3 months

K and I have a day no work , no kids.. just us to hang out tomorrow.. What ever will we do?

And we have an answer

The beta was negative. As I had stated I really did not think it was going to say positive. I had taken the EPT on Friday and it was Neg.
I am sad this cycle was a bust. I had so many good sized follicles , great sperm counts 56 million and 70 percent mobility. Great timing as my cervix was nice and open. I know the chances are low for me still, even with the great # of follicles and sperm..
I wonder if I was not as fat as I am.. if  I would have as much trouble getting pregnant? My mom was a big girl and on birth control when my 2 brothers were conceived... Why is it so hard for my body to get the memo. Hello...... 500.00 for one vial of sperm .. its adding up. I am lucky I still have health insurance . It covers most everything. I only pay 20.00 for my IUI and no more than 40.00 for meds.
Kassandra's insurance covers nothing. It will cost us 1000 for sperm ( 2 vials) and 175 for each IUI (2 in once cycle) so needless to say we have to save a bit more for K to try again. She really only wants to try one or two more times.. so she is working with her dr to get her timing down. She will try on one of my off cycles ( unless I get pregnant in June or August.)

we have good friends who Kassandra nannies for part time. They are a lesbian couple and their daughter is a year and half. They started TTC and guess who is pregnant... yep you guessed it. I took this really hard. I was so angry and mad that they got pregnant on their 1st try. Its been 9 weeks and I am still not happy. The issue is they are/were good friends. I just do not know how to be happy for them.

Night